For the Mom with a Tattered Soul

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
    and knit me together in my mother’s womb.

Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.

You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
    as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
    before a single day had passed.

How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.
They cannot be numbered!

I can’t even count them;
    they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
    you are still with me!

There’s nothing that God doesn’t know. No thought or action of ours can be hidden from God. We cannot escape God. 

He sees us. He sees us in our moments of joy, and He sees us in our moments of desperation. He sees us in our sin, in our brokenness. He sees us in our failings and our struggles. He is El Roi - The God Who Sees.

And yet…

He never leaves us. He goes with us. In our highest of highs and in our lowest of lows, He goes with us. Why? Because he loves us. He created us, knowing us even before we were knitted together in our mother’s womb. His word says that His workmanship is marvelous.

You are marvelous.

You are a marvelous workmanship. You are a beautiful woman. God gave you your splendid body that carries your very soul, the magnificent core of who you are. Why are beautiful? Because God created you and His workmanship is marvelous. 

But life beats at us, tears us, tatters us and wears us down. Where is His marvelous workmanship? We look in the mirror and all we can see is the scars on our bodies and on our hearts. Where is His marvelous workmanship?

But that’s the beauty of our God, The God Who Sees. He sees past the scars on our tattered heart. And loves us right where we are. He loves us for us. He loves what others deem unlovely. 

He doesn’t just love us. He is jealous for us - jealous to have our whole heart. Not jealous as a man possessing a woman as a prize, but jealous for us because of the pure love He has for us, desiring for us to have the same for Him.

And when we feel like no one listens to us, not the men in our lives, not the children we created, not our bosses or our friends, He wants us to talk to Him - to tell Him the intimate details of our thoughts and desires. He wants us to lay our problems and our dreams at His feet, knowing that He cares for them and He will take care with them. 

As a mother and a woman, there are many, many thoughts in our minds. So many worries. So many desires for our families. God wants us to give those to Him. God wants to give those to us.

Give your desires to Him. 
Your God cares for them.
Your God sees you.

The Lord is close to all who call on him,
    yes, to all who call on him in truth. 

He grants the desires of those who fear him;
    he hears their cries for help and rescues them. 
Psalm 145:18-19 (NLT)