A Song for a Season

What a Friend we have in Jesus,
  All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
  Everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit,
  O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
  Everything to God in prayer!

I've listened to him strum his guitar and whisper these lyrics over the last few days. Sometimes there are no words to be said. No formal prayers to be spoken. Sometimes there are only lyrics and a melody that soothe and heal.

Songs matter. They move us.

That's why you can find a teenage girl crying over the lyrics of a song after a break up.
That's why couples find the perfect song that personifies their relationship to have their first dance to at their wedding.
That's why you can be transported back to your childhood when you hear a song that triggers a memory.

We all have different songs for different seasons. And in a season of pain, distress and growth a song can become a prayer. A prayer you sing that you long for your heart to believe. A song that can begin to heal your heart. An offering to God when you can't find your own words.

After 3 relatively easy pregnancies, I was stunned when we found out there was several complications in my 4th pregnancy. Life-changing complications. I had no words. I would sit trying to find the "right"  words to pray. I would open my journal, but the words to write would never come. I was trapped in a state of fear.

As I was driving one day in the midst of the chaos of loud children, a song came on. A song that became my anthem, my prayer through this season. These were the words I couldn't find on my own.

Lord I have see your goodness
And I know the way you are
Give me eyes to see you in the dark
And your face shines of glory
That I only know in part
And there is still a longing
A longing in my heart

You revive me
you revive me Lord
And all my deserts are rivers of joy
You are the treasure, I could not afford
So I'll spend myself till' I'm empty and poor
All for you, you revive me lord

It was the reminder I needed that no matter what may happen, He is the one who revives me. He is the one who is still good even when I am in the dark. 

Often times while driving by myself during that season, I would get in the car all alone and let the song play. I would turn up it loud and sing those words and the tears would stream down my cheeks. Many days I would play the song 5 times in a row - determined for it to play until I could believe what I was singing.

I'm alive, I'm alive
You breathe on me
You revive me

I inhaled His grace and exhaled my prayers and praises - a mom in a minivan with a song to sing and a prayer to give to her Creator. And He heard me. He revived me.

What song has God given you to sing during your season?